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[18 Jul 2007|02:27am] |
I really hope your not actually expecting a phone call.. ever.
why did i even expect more, there has been no dropping of anything.
I'm glad this happened now, when life is changing, then before when the world still spun in one direction.
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[17 Jul 2007|04:10am] |
I need to leave this hell hole. Soon.
I fear rent and car payments aren't affordable.
P.S, Septum = Pierced = Friday.
:)
P.P.S, No matter what anyone says, Credit cards KICK ass.
if it's over
it's quite alright
we move on
we live
we survive..
we walk it off.
this is just reality
kicking in full force.
andrew, right again.
I wish i was young like my friends.
But, I'm old.. and I love it. and I love them. x 5.
Sanity remains when you have someone who really listens..
that reminds me of something..
"When people think your dying, they really listen to you...
"instead of waiting for their turn to talk..
or something like that.
... well that movie is definetly going on my party movie list.
I swear, i'll grow up.. Just not right now.
Lifes too complicated right now to try and care.
Sleep now.
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[23 Jun 2007|03:08pm] |
germaine just burned the Tell all your friends CD
very exciting.
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[02 May 2007|10:12pm] |
i want you back.
I want to go to Tim Hortons so badly.
i want proof that you want this too.
i want proof that your willing to take me back.
i want to look at you and not fear what you think of me.
i want you to want me.
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[30 Apr 2007|11:36pm] |
this isn't how i feel..being the girl, at all. I just.. like it.
( dry your eyes mate )
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[28 Apr 2007|02:32pm] |
| JeanBen | says:
Hey... guess what am I listenning to, right now?
- maine[the lion thug] * i thought the sun rose in your eyes says:
what are you listening to, right now?
| JeanBen | says:
French rap :D
- maine[the lion thug] * i thought the sun rose in your eyes says:
ROFLMFAO.
| JeanBen | says:
I know, I fell low
| JeanBen | says:
But actually, it's good, believe it or not.
- maine[the lion thug] *my name is J-ben and i listen to french rap. BONSOIR. says:
lmao
| JeanBen | says:
But you're too retarded to understand french, too bad for you
- maine[the lion thug] *my name is J-ben and i listen to french rap. BONSOIR. says:
i know french very well
- maine[the lion thug] *my name is J-ben and i listen to french rap. BONSOIR. says:
XD
- maine[the lion thug] *my name is J-ben and i listen to french rap. BONSOIR. says:
no i don't, i lie.
- maine[the lion thug] *my name is J-ben and i listen to french rap. BONSOIR. says:
I am a retard.
- maine[the retarded lion thug] *my name is J-ben and i listen to french rap. BONSOIR. says:
:P
| JeanBen | says:
Dear, you're still young, you still have a long way to go.
- maine[the retarded lion thug] *my name is J-ben and i listen to french rap. BONSOIR. says:
lmfao.
| JeanBen | says:
It's never too late
- maine[the retarded lion thug] *my name is J-ben and i listen to french rap. BONSOIR. says:
sorry, im not snobby enough to be french
- maine[the retarded lion thug] *my name is J-ben and i listen to french rap. BONSOIR. says:
i''ll stick with retardation.
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[27 Apr 2007|03:37pm] |
who the fuck gets a cold when it's 22 degrees outside?!
I hate me. x 2837493.
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[26 Apr 2007|12:16pm] |
you know that horrible pain staking feeling, and you don't know exactly what emotion is causing it?
I do.
This is fucking gay.
The worst part of all, even if it was went to be, it can't.
I see someone else, this won't ever be. Again. and it's my fault, and it could be the biggest mistake i've ever made in my entire life, except for one that actually took a life.
I hate this.
Alot.
and.. I wanted this to work.. so bad. but so much stuff was pushing me away.
I just hope one of those things is very understanding because i'm a terrible person and anngry.
My throat actually phyiscally hurts now. it's not just that yucky sad feeling. it actually caused physical damage.
If that's not proof. i don't know what is.
But..
I guess it's time to move on, this was afterall my decision. And, If i can't do this then.. I can't.
What other option do I have?
i wish it could. so bad. but it will never be again.
I'm so fucking stupid.
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[16 Apr 2007|12:49am] |
What kind of love is this that keeps me
hanging on
despite everything it's doing to me
what is this love that keeps me coming
back for more
when it will only end in misery...
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[15 Apr 2007|11:35pm] |
i lose myself in all these fights
i lose my sense of wrong and right
i cry, i cry
shaking from the pain that's in my head
i just wanna crawl into my bed
and throw away the life i led
but i won't let it die, but i won't let it die
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[06 Mar 2007|11:05pm] |
Uh..
what did i miss?
and on another note..
I need a new hairstyle.
I need a new job.
I need a new color for my hair.
I need money.
I need to lose my fatness.
I need new clothes.
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I miss this Way way too much.
I wish this friendship wasn't over.
I wish we weren't different people.
Best friends means I pulled the trigger...
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[20 Feb 2007|12:15am] |
it may be a sin, but i love the new fall out boy CD. BEAYawwwh
annd.
randomly buying CD's because the cover is super cool is AWESOME.
I love.. whatever type of music it is..
Indie?
THE SHINNNSS --The Shins
Fannntastic.
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[13 Feb 2007|10:16pm] |
I wish i had someone to talk to when i can't say it to the person who listens best.
happy almost valentines/singles awareness day
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[31 Jan 2007|11:29pm] |
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So.
Basically one of the best nights I've had in a long long time.
+made funish plans that changed...
-because of reasons i'd rather not talk about*
-am way to passive about things and wished i had more courage.
-was so so so mad i was shaking while talking to megan
+devon unblocked me!
+made new plans
+Hung out with Devon and Jared, which hadn't been in forever. good fucking times. I miss the old days.
-/+ ranted.and got shit off my chest.*
++found out that jared has a sweet car.
+owned jared in air hockey
+++SAW LYNSEY.
-/+ ranted got shit off my chest*
+ we're going to sleep together again in Edmonton.
++lynsey bought yummy wings.
-devon left
-lynsey left
----watched scary movie and was too scared to go upstairs and pee. teehee.
-/+ saw jared half naked holding on to shorts like 3 sizes too big.
uhm
++megan came upstairs with me so i could pee!
and
then Jared slept on the couch
and me and megan slept on the klu klucks klan kouch.
oh oh
and good old stuffed breasts and lasagna while watching independance day and CSI
woot.
That was basically the whole night, minus subbing and juicing and dresses and fun.
AND ALMOST DYING IN AN AWESOME ACCIDENT. I so forgot about that.
Megan totalled her car.
I was half a foot away from DYING and being squished by a wooden pole.
and then danced away in belly dancing.
yay linda
and yay gypsy caravan <3
i honestly basically told you the whole night, details were lost in dead sea scrolls
pomplamouse?
<3
today was pretty good too.
bumping uglies = yayness. x2
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1. How tall are you barefoot?
5'3"
3. Do you own a gun?
no
4. Rehab?
Is for people who know that they are ill and Do something about it. Rehad is not for quitters. That's pathetic to think that.. unless its like nympho rehab, then your a quitter.
5. Do you get nervous before “meeting the parents”?
nope
6. What do you think of your friends?
good people, I wish there was more time.
7. What’s your favorite Christmas song?
carol of the bells
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
water
9. Do you do push-ups?
no
11. Are you vegitarian?
no.
13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
my crazy awesome hair.. :P XD
14. Do you own a knife?
yes.
15. Do you have A.D.D.?
yes
16. Date Of Birth?
june 7.
17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
1) i'm tired
2) i should go to bed
3) this thing made me mad.
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought?
1) mc donalds
2) hair dye
3) make up stuff
19. Name five drinks you regularly drink:
1) Pop
2) iced tea
3) water.
4) apple juice.
5) milk shakes
20. What time did you wake up today?
10:30
21. Current hair?
yellow and orange and purple
22. Current worry?
relationship stuff.
23. Current hate?
stupid people
24. Favorite place to be?
bed
25. Least favorite place to be?
school.
26. Where would you like to go?
on the spain and france tripp :(
27. Do you own slippers?
no.
somewhere
28. What do you think you’ll be in 10 yrs?
10 years older
29. Do you burn or tan?
tan
30. Last thing you ate?
pecan cluster blizzard
31. Would you be a pirate?
if they weren't hung yes.
32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
uhh..a while ago
33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
I don't do that.
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
the white sillhouettes i saw inthe hallways, and then my mom said she saw them too
36. Last thing that made you laugh?
Andrew
37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
strawberry shortcake
38. Worst injury you’ve ever had?
a dunno
40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
5
41. Who is your loudest friend?
Amanda
42. Who is your most silent friend?
lynsey.
43. Does someone have a crush on you?
not that i'm aware of o.0
44. Do you wish on stars?
sometimes
45. What is your favorite book?
of Human bondage
46. What is your favorite candy?
those strawberry marshmellow things, or those green and white frogs.
47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
close your eyes - christophe Beck
48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
too old to die young
49. What were you doing 12AM last night?
making a beaded bracelet
50. Do you love someone?
yes
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[03 Jan 2007|07:21am] |
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( ) stayed single
( ) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
(x) made-out in/on a car
(x) kissed in the snow
(x) kissed in the rain
( ) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
(x) have/had a good relationship with someone
(x) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
(x) kissed someone of the same sex
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) asked someone out
(x) broke a promise
( ) broke up with someone you STILL loved/liked
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under mistletoe
(x) cried after hearing a song
WORK/SCHOOL
( ) got a promotion
(x) got a pay raise
(x) changed jobs
(x) lost your job
(x) quit your job
(x) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
(x) got fired from your job
(x) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really hated
(x) found the subject you love
(x) failed a class
(x) cut class
(x) skipped school/college
(x) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(x) proved yourself an idiot
(x) embarrassed yourself in front of the class
(x) fell in love with a teacher
( ) lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
(x) met a new friend
( ) have a group of new best friends
(x) lost a good friend
OTHER
(x) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
(x) went to camp / went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
( ) been to a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) flirted shamelessly
( ) visited a foreign country
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
(x) dyed/bleached/highlights your hair
( ) came close to losing your life
(X) someone close to you died
(x) went to a party
(x) drank alcohol
(x) drank alcohol underage
(x) missed someone
( ) drug(s)
(x) got drunk
( ) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
(x) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
( ) saw your favorite band/artist live
( ) saw someone famous in person
( ) did something you want to tell everyone
(x) Enjoyed this year overall
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